One Year Ago...

It was a year ago today my thoughts were scattered all about, my Grandma was in the hospital and it was not looking good.  I was scared but I knew she was strong.  It was late afternoon and I was getting ready to go up to the hospital to see her.  I had litterally just walked into the kitchen to grab my wallet and keys and the phone rang.  Looking at the phone I saw her number appear.  I was excited could she be ok and be calling me?  It was my Aunt to give me some very sad news...My Grandma had passed earlier that afternoon.  I then made the hardest phone call I ever have had to make, I had to track down my Mom and Dad to tell them the very sad news.  

Dear Grandma;
   I miss you so very much, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you.  One month and seven days after you got your wings our sweet baby boy was born.  I know you were so excited to meet him.  I like to think that you were the angel that made sure he got here safely.
In the hospital he held his hands like he was saying a prayer, I took a picture to show you and felt really silly afterwards because how could I forget you were gone?  I have actually dialed your phone number to talk to you to tell you something exciting, but there was a recording about checking my number and trying my call again....if only I could.
I miss the way you and Ian would tease each other and although it sounded like you were insulting each other, you both were insanely funny.  I miss being able to talk to you when I had a problem that I could only talk to you about, you always knew the right thing to say even if it was telling me that I was in the wrong!
I have learned many things from you....most of all "jumping on the bed never hurt anyone just as long as its done safely!"  I have learned this can can be applied to so many things in life! 
The kids are growing bigger and bigger and we talk about you all the time.  Today Abigayle and her cousin played with rocks you collected from all over Canada.
I bought a beautiful wrap to carry Sam in, it is blue.  I fell in love with it because it reminded me of you.  When I wear Sam in it I feel like you are giving both of us a squishy warm hug.
Thank-you for teaching me all that you did, and helping to mold me to be the person I am today.  I am so thankful for the amazing times we spent together, all the adventures that we took and the trouble that we got into together....
I Love You Forever

It has Been Forever

It has been so long since I have posted anything...Yep, I am indeed a slacker blogger. 
So the updates are: we had a beautiful baby boy (I will detail his birth story on a later post) and this family of mine has kept me super busy with their antics, shenanigans and carrying on.  I of course would not have it any other way!  I have been dealing with an annoying unknown autoimmune disease which leaves me in a great deal of pain in my feet, knees, shoulders, back and hands.  I am seeing a specialist to get it all sorted out!  Ohh and I learned about baby wearing....ohh baby wearing is my new passion
 I may not post everyday or every week but I have so much to share and write about and oddly enough writing is my out and it keeps me sane...Hugs